_cc781905-5cde-3194 -bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ I find it very important
...that people who are under an addiction
(alcohol, pills, drugs or other)
or onementalsuffer from illness
_cc781905-5cde-3194 -bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ deal with itunderstanding and
_cc781905-5cde-3194 -bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ carefully.
_cc781905-5cde-3194 -bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ _cc781905 Everything is causal.
The part of us that is wants to anesthetize
_cc781905-5cde-3194 -bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ has often endured bad things and
have to endure and is still trying
_cc781905-5cde-3194 -bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ _cc781905 -5cde-3194-bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ nothingmore to endure
_cc781905-5cde-3194 -bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ because he is still injured
_cc781905-5cde-3194 -bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ _cc781905 -5cde-3194-bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ and painhas.
_cc781905-5cde-3194 -bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ _cc781905 -5cde-3194-bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ And exactly this part
_cc781905-5cde-3194 -bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ needs all our attention
_cc781905-5cde-3194 -bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ _cc781905 -5cde-3194-bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ _cc781905-5cde-3194- bb3b-136bad5cf58d_ und Liebe.
After all, it's easier to deal with something that you allow yourself to be approached in order to look at it holistically than to push it away and feed it morsels from a long stick, because it somehow comes from the basement - where if possible nobody can see - screams.
Maybe it just wants to ask, "Why are you pushing me away, I know I'm not beautiful, dirty and broken. We've hit the ground so many times. But remember, between you and the ground I lay. Between the hand that holds you and you, I was. Why don't you want me, why don't you help me -i am your pain".
So why? Why am I trying to push it away and hide it? Anyone who thinks that alcohol and drug syndrome is an understood and recognized condition either lives in France or thinks for themselves (because they have understood and recognized). And that's a good thing, always start with yourself. Otherwise, my experiences with regard to understanding are unfortunately rather distressing. If you're lucky, you have a loving human family or good friends.
Unfortunately, neither the "developed" society nor an expensive health system can help with mental illnesses and addictions. In my understanding, society is literally lacking in "high development" and expensive or not, health can neither be bought nor sold.... Disease, on the other hand, can. Because exactly 2 types of patients make a very well-earning pharmaceutical industry and the lucrative health system superfluous - healthy and dead! And by that I mean proportionality. Everyone deserves wages for their work. However, I know how some representatives of the recovery system livecan and how many of those to be healed are alivemust.
I sometimes wonder what to do with all the billions spent annually on alcohol and drug therapy/cessation and treatment of long-term substance-related harm. And yet it's just a morsel on a stick to feed those who suffer. Suffering because they are unable to turn off their natural sensitivity and suppress their pain like others. They break at the "higher, further, faster - now, immediately, on the spot, right away" society. The point is that the person who cannot or no longer manages to run - for whatever reason - comes down to the basement. Because in the "Now, immediately, on the spot, equal system" there is no time for healing.
In my understanding and in my experience, a holistic and sustainable recovery is possible if - in a metaphorical sense - I let help me to give the disease a name myself. I am the healing myself - in the pure form of my being - my soul. This usually requires a deep examination of oneself. Superimposed by experiences, manipulation and ego walls, it is now unavoidable to remove onion layer by onion layer and that takes time, courage and bravery and it is exhausting, painful and frustrating. It's still worth it, because behind all this we are healthy and can master and enjoy life.
As a person who has made a very insightful journey through the psychiatric institutions of this country, for those who do not want to speak or can no longer speak because they did not survive, I say that the disease of the individual, often paradoxically, does not lie with him or her in the clinic and only reoccurs when he or she has left the clinic.
Oddly enough, I have never succeeded in a therapeutic project. I received and received therapy, was guarded, protected from myself, treated with medication, cared for and looked after by a doctor. My condition was miserable and became more and more miserable. However, nothing made me despair and scared as much as the question marks above the heads and the helplessness in the eyes of the doctors, therapists and all the others who wanted and/or should help for professional reasons. And nothing has made me so sad as to experience and have to watch the disrespect, irresponsibility and arrogance with which people who need help are treated. I can hear the doctors screaming at me, "Why can't anyone help me? Where's the cure?". I'm sure some of you, and many nurses in particular, would have loved to help me, and indeed you are, with your kindness, humor and comfort. And I'm wholeheartedly for thatHearts thankful!
But ultimately, my job is to find healing, to recover, and to heal. In shamanism it is called purification. I call it: The Healing Sickness...
In the end there was nothing left, apartment, belongings, my favorite animals, friends... all gone! Just me, a bag with a few things and books, in a deserted area just outside my beloved Hamburg. Oh yes, and that voice that spoke so gently, quietly and patiently, "You can do it, you've always been able to do it. Listen, finally listen again and look. It's all there". And I remember it was the same beautiful voice that said very softly when I had to sleep on the street, "Wake up Maren, it's time". I didn't really understand it that night - because of the circumstances...
But then I understood and woke up.
